i've decided, despite not knowing what my future holds, that i am changing my major to secondary education: french... i don't care that i have no idea what i want to do cause i have to be going to college for something. teaching sounds good, and i have a minute french background. but what i truly want to do has nothing to do with any of this; play music, sing, have people know me, not any image of me though fame, but the real me through my music. i've felt so artistic lately. i don't know why. i've been thinking of getting a white ichthus on the underside of my left wrist; a constant reminder in this vast world delving into their own pre-made ideals that my ideals/morals aren't decided by me, but by One much greater. people assume society says these thing they do is alright, but they don't realize that this okaying by society is actually a lot of people's mistakes occuring near the same point in time. re-read that if you skimmed because that was confusing i'm sure; but i know what i meant. i've also been thinking of a different design for my right forearm, dealing, again, in individuality b/c of Christ. i don't know why i am all of a sudden wanting these, but i am...

learned "one more cup of coffee." i'm proud of this simply because it's a bod dylan song. also learned john mayer's new song (i mean new, not new single). it hasn't been released yet, but will on his next cd, continuum, come 2006. it's called "hummingbird."

btw:
i'm tired of living for nothing.